Swollen eyes are NOT beautiful!

I'm sorry I've been terrible at this lately. I have had a chaotic week! I probably need to start writing these posts ahead of time so when I have a hectic week I can just choose a pre-written one and post it. I am so smart sometimes when I'm not actually trying. That was a fantastic idea and I'm not quite sure why I never thought of it before. Maybe I'll start doing that...maybe. This post is going to be very random. If you don't want to read random, then I suggest you go to a different page now. But, really I don't want you to go away so please stay? Pretty please?

My week started with an interview for basically my dream job. It was very exciting. I had to drive to Chicago, which is 4 hours away, and back home all in the same day. It was a very tiring day. But then, yesterday I found out that I didn't get the job. I cried a little bit (moment of vulnerability, sorry) then I decided to read a blog that always makes me laugh. I was reading a post called How to be Happy, Reclaim your Youth and Also Vanquish a Centaur *HINT*: Bacon is Involved and it told me to jump on my bed. So I did that. And then I went for a run (there's my exercise part of this post). And after that I read more old posts on Hyperbole and a Half. And I was in a fantastic mood. Not because I wasn't sad anymore, but because I started thinking about other things and how sometimes they suck, but sometimes they're okay. I still would love to have the job, but if it's not in the cards, it's not in the cards. I can't change that I guess. Everything happens for a reason. Except bee stings. There is no reason for a bee sting. 

I was laying outside today because it was lovely. I was trying to get tan and beautiful. Before you scold me, I know that laying outside in the sun and getting a tan is not healthy and people are against it, but I feel prettier when I am tan, so there! Well anyway, I was laying there relaxing and listening to music and having a lovely time by myself and then I got stung on my eyelid by a bee! WTF?! Swollen eyes are not beautiful. I can't even lay outside by myself and be beautiful without screwing it up! 

Also, I want to dye my hair. I wrote that in a post about a month ago and I never actually did it because I forgot to. Maybe I didn't really forget to, I just couldn't decide on a color. And I still can't. And this is the reason for my stress right now. It's a terribly difficult decision and I don't want to make it. I keep asking other people what they think I should do. But other people say things like "Oh, you'll look great no matter what color your hair is" (which isn't actually true, and "Hmm that's a tough decision, I really don't know" (which I feel is a cop out, they don't want to make me feel bad). Either way, I still don't know what color. I really just want to know lighter or darker. I feel like I would like to go darker, but lighter is more summery. I just don'y like my hair when it's lighter. I feel like it's 2007 when my hair is lighter. But here's the deal, it's not 2007. I think I may have just made my very own decision. I can't believe it. Maybe if I talk over all my decisions like this with myself I would be able to make these decisions. Hmm definitely something to think about. 

Okay, I think this is where I should end because you guys are probably sick of reading all this by now. Hell, you were probably sick of reading it a long time ago, but you stuck by me. Maybe. Well if you didn't stick by me, you won't know that I said that anyway so it doesn't really matter. So I hope you enjoyed this incredibly random post filled with basically nothing but everything all at the same time. 

xoxo, Morgan